I've been feeling really down lately, I don't know, could've been the bipolar thingy, whatever. Anyways, sometimes when you feel down there are times when you feel like you've reached rock bottom and you mentally and emotionally can't go on any further but up. That's what I've been going through lately, I don't know even physically my blood pressure seems to spike and dip corresponding to what I'm going through. So... time to make myself happy, after all my life also had its share of good times. :)
If someone asks me what my happiest childhood memory is, I would answer without hesitation, SWIMMING! :) My dad loved to take us out swimming when we were kids, we'd frequent various places with swimming pools in them, beaches and whatever as long as there's water. My mom would pack our food in picnic baskets, and we would happily prepare our swim clothes, sunblock, goggles, towels, camera, and all the usual stuff a family prepares for when going out swimming. Oh, just thinking about it makes me feel all warm inside. :) I think that's why everytime I smell the scent of sunblock it immediately makes me feel so happy.
My sisters and cousins would then compete by seeing who could swim the fastest, hold their breath underwater the longest, and who could make the biggest cannon ball splash! I also remember one place which had a mulberry tree besides the parking lot, it took us a while to recognize that it was a mulberry tree but after the discovery we kids would enjoy picking the fruits and being careful not to stain our clothes, in retrospect it was a bit dangerous for kids to go picking unfamiliar fruits and go eating them without asking their parents what it is, hahaha!
When I was younger, I suffered from skin allergies, it was so bad sometimes I can't go swimming because of the open sores I sometimes have. This is the reason why I am extremely attracted to people with gorgeous skin. Everytime we go out swimming, I always check the place out if there were a lot of swimmers around, otherwise I would just stay behind in the picnic tables and eat! One time I so wanted to go swim but at the same time so anxious about my allergies that I jumped in the water with a towel still wrapped around my waist! Everyone was teasing me about it for a long time after that incident.
Haaay, this exercise is lifitng my spirits. But too tired to write anymore, I promise to write more happy things about my life. Time to reprogram the life story that runs in this crazy head of mine.
Love love love! :)
